Tonight, I wanna forget about me.

I’ve been having the best wee day today. Like honestly, I’ve been happy and laughing and writing for the first time in such a long time. I’ve gotten so much done, personally and for uni. Sometimes there’s a beauty in goodbye, I’ve noticed. There’s something so bittersweet about it; so hauntingly beautiful. Like, a song will play or you’ll find a photograph or old random messages and you’ll think of that person and even though it hurts that there’s this massive distance between you now and you don’t talk; there’s this little part of you that knows even though you miss them like crazy, this is the way it has to be. They say that if you love someone you should let them go and if they come back to you, it’s meant to be. I believe in that for friendships, too. Some of my best friends and I don’t talk for months and then pick up where we left off as though nothing happened. Sometimes the people that are the hardest to let go of really are the most beautiful of goodbyes.

I just really miss you, I just really miss you. There’s a life I can’t ask you to leave. I just really miss you, right now I kinda want to. The closest that you’ll ever be to me, is free. 

When you feel there’s no saving grace, I’m on my way. I’m on my way. And when your bound to second place, I’m on my way. I’m on my way. So don’t believe it’s all in vain, cause I’m on my way. On My Way. The light at the end is worth the pain, cause I’m on my way. I’ll be there the moment, you come out in white. Cause I’m on my way. 

On My Way - Boyce Avenue

This song gives me hope. :)

Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you, too. Don’t forget me I beg. I’ll remember you said “Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.”  Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Someone like you - Boyce Avenue acoustic cover. 

you can tell me all your thoughts, about the stars that fill polluted skies. And show me where you run to when no-one’s left to take your side. But don’t tell me where this road ends, cause I don’t want to know. I don’t want to know. 

Angels on the Moon - Thriving Ivory.

This is actually the song I use to pull myself out of those dark little corners I manage to get myself into. It gives me goosebumps and makes me cry every time. So, don’t tell me if I’m dying… 

There’s a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout, ‘cause you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out and these mistakes that you make you’ll just make them again, if you’d only try turning around. 

Breathe (2am) - Anna Nalick

this is, and will always be, one of my favourite songs. No matter what time of my life I hear it, I’ll never forget the first time and it’ll always relate to me. Always. 

But now it’s come to distances, both of us must try, your eyes fill with sorrow. Hey, that’s no way to say Goodbye. I’m not looking for another as I wander in my time, walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme. You know my heart goes with you, your love stays with me. It’s just the way life changes like the shoreline of the sea.

Hey, that’s no way to say Goodbye - Roberta Flack.

I might be a little bit in love with this song right now. 

I’ve been waiting on you for a long time, fuelling up on heartaches and cheap wine. I ain’t heard from you in three damned nights. I put your picture away, I wonder you’ve been, I can’t look at you while I’m lying next to him. 

Picture - Kid Rock ft. Sheryl Crow

Recently came across this one; suffice to say I’m actually sobbing. I hate feelings. I really, really do.

I ain’t gonna lie, it’s unlikely that our paths will trace a line from your heart to mine. So I’ll drink to the pain and I just wanna say; that if you wanna call me to pass the miles, that’d be fine ‘cause I’ve got the time. And it’s not like I’d pass up your voice that breaks through my day even with what you don’t say.

What We Don’t Say - Jessica Harp

This song, though. I’m drowning in tears. All the feelings. ALL of them.

and when you fall asleep, I’ll kiss your cheek. Whisper goodbye and I’ll just leave. One last time.

One Last Time - Kellie Pickler.

I missed you, now I don’t. I give in, now I won’t. I loved you, now I can’t put my heart through all that again. Sometimes gone, is really gone and sometimes, baby, people just move on. And letting go, means letting go. I did, but you won’t, let go.

Letting Go - Jessica Harp

Me, crying at this song? Nooooo.